It’s great to be on the campus of Utah! So many students, so many proabably not sure of much in their lives.. And then I just hope we can meet some of them and help them navigate through these defining years at college. It’s sad to see students not really interested in our group or any other campus ministry, just because they’ve had a bad experience at church or some other past event. Jesus is so wonderful and the question is how do we get students searching for meaning connected with Jesus? Not a church or campus ministry, but with Jesus, the true lover of mankind? That’s the trick. What little I know is it starts with prayer….
Archive for January, 2010
No one likes brown air; thick, chewy, POINTY air. I am really sick of smog. It literally hurts to breathe. The beautiful Wasatch and Oquirrh Mountains are not to be seen, and haven’t been visible for weeks. All the exhaust from the copper smelter, the oil refineries, and the 5 billion cars on the road here every day is trapped on top of me (okay; US) by high pressure. (I did say 5 billion, because I MEANT IT.)
In spite of the lack of clean air (=oxygen), I feel really hopeful. Not sure why. I feel alright—-good, even—on the inside. Like I’m comfortable in my own skin. (Do you care about any of this? How could you possibly??) Somehow, it doesn’t even matter to me whether you care or not! And I guess that’s the deal right there. I feel like just being me, making myself vulnerable. It’s a freedom-thing, I s’pose. (lol) Baby, life is good. Smog and all 
I’m tired, but not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually. What deems a burnout or a breakdown? Usually I have high energy and loads of motivation. Right now I can’t think of one thing I really want to tackle. It’s all my responsibility, I give no blame, I take it all. But it still stinks. I know that my spiritual reserves are weak, I know God can see my condition, and can’t be happy with it. Who is? I need more than just a postive attitude – my wife and kids are depending on me. Living in SLC for some, (me), is a mysterious thing. I tend to think that some people have a target on them for whatever reason… so this is where I am today. I have a chance to re-determine my will and efforts — taking control of my life – spiritual and physical. One ‘good’ thing to this season I’ve put myself in is I know firsthand how depressing and hopeless and thrill-less life can be at times. God help me to be get a move on, and be a true encourager of others…
