Do you know that feeling when you’re sick (especially if you’re drowsy from some medication) and you kinda feel like a zombie? UGH!!!
Lately I’ve been taking prescription drugs for a muscle strain in my back. I don’t like these drugs. They make me drowsy. I often can’t think straight or perform at my job. What’s worse is I don’t realize it. I find my boss and coworkers looking at me strangely or asking me if I’m ok. They tell me they’re not sure I’m all there. Tis not a good feeling.
I’ve known this feeling before, and I don’t like it. It’s the same feeling you get when you have unconfessed sin. Sin, at least in my experience, can have a kind of numbing effect. It closes your heart from feeling some hurt or painful longing. The problem is it closes your heart from feeling God too. You’re not making your heart better. You’re actually making it worse because you can’t connect with The Healer and you mayn’t even realize you’re hurting.
When I’m feeling spiritually or emotionally numb, I find refreshment and healing in prayer. Usually that prayer would begin something like this:
God, I know you’re there, but I don’t feel you right now. I confess that I have allowed my heart to stray from you. I have given in to (temptation, anger, lust, etc.) Please search my heart for any sin that I am not aware of. Please forgive me for sinning against you and cleanse my heart. I want to draw near to you God. Please draw near to me. My heart has been a little closed towards you lately. Right now I want to open up my heart to you ….
Then I share what’s on my heart: fears, worries, temptations, longings, thankfulness, etc. and let the prayer go where it takes us. Sometimes it leads into a time of silence and listening to Him. Sometimes it leads to a time of praise. Sometimes He puts some scripture on my heart and it leads to a time of learning. But always I come away feeling close to my God.
Do you know that feeling when you’re sick (especially if you’re drowsy from some medication) and you kinda feel like a zombie? UGH!!!
Lately I’ve been taking prescription drugs for a muscle strain in my back. I don’t like these drugs. They make me drowsy. I often can’t think straight or perform at my job. What’s worse is I don’t realize it. I find my boss and coworkers looking at me strangely or asking me if I’m ok. They tell me they’re not sure I’m all there. Tis not a good feeling.
I’ve known this feeling before, and I don’t like it. It’s the same feeling you get when you have unconfessed sin. Sin, at least in my experience, can have a kind of numbing effect. It closes your heart from feeling some hurt or painful longing. The problem is it closes your heart from feeling God too. You’re not making your heart better. You’re actually making it worse because you can’t connect with The Healer and you mayn’t even realize you’re hurting.
When I’m feeling spiritually or emotionally numb, I find refreshment and healing in prayer. Usually that prayer would begin something like this:
God, I know you’re there, but I don’t feel you right now. I confess that I have allowed my heart to stray from you. I have given in to (temptation, anger, lust, etc.) Please search my heart for any sin that I am not aware of. Please forgive me for sinning against you and cleanse my heart. I want to draw near to you God. Please draw near to me. My heart has been a little closed towards you lately. Right now I want to open up my heart to you ….
Then I share what’s on my heart: fears, worries, temptations, longings, thankfulness, etc. and let the prayer go where it takes us. Sometimes it leads into a time of silence and listening to Him. Sometimes it leads to a time of praise. Sometimes He puts some scripture on my heart and it leads to a time of learning. But always I come away feeling close to my God.