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Usually I go for the best deal if not the cheapest shoe I can find. This time, I splurged. I got me some good shoes and even paid extra for arch support inserts! I really hope they help me enjoy life more, be more active, do more things, and have less aches and pains.

Thinking more deeply though . . . life is a journey. And how far can we get on that journey without a good pair of shoes? And how can we walk at a good pace if our feet are uncomfortable? And if our feet start hurting, aren’t our back and knees going to start hurting pretty soon too? What if we find ourselves in harms way and we need to be quick and agile in order to thwart off the demons?

My tendency in the past has been to take my feet for granted, buy whatever shoes are on clearance or whatever, and ignore the pain and discomfort. So I wonder if I’ve treated my soul any better than I’ve treated my soles. I have a good relationship with God. I study the Bible and pray through what I’m learning and feeling. I try to apply the word to my daily life. But sometimes it’s hard just to spend time soaking in the gospel. I tend to read the Bible to learn something new and fresh, not to remind myself of what I already know. I wonder how much my life would be even better if I spent time reminding my soul who Jesus is and how great it is to be loved by Him . . . and live in that peace!

Eph 6:15  and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace.

If we spend time immersing our souls (soles) in the word (shoes of peace) every morning, we will not only be prepared for whatever comes our way, but we will find our days more enjoyable because of the comfort we find for our souls (soles).

Father’s Day is the day to remember, honor and call your Dad.  So, I did that today. Then I remembered how cool my Dad is.  He may not seem very flashy or talkative or charismatic, but when people need help, advice or a loan, he is the one they come to.  I think about how special my Dad is, having grown up in the Depression, served his country overseas in WWII, attended/graduated from USC in 1950, worked with Hughes Aircraft (on contract with NASA) on the Surveyor Program in the 60′s, designed his own house (which he still owns and resides in), raised 3 pretty competent and kind children, served in the life of the local church, developed a pretty consistent prayer life….and most of all, served, provided and loved his wife of nearly 60 years (and counting)…  How in the world could I measure up to that example?  I can’t.  Happy Father’s Day, Dad.  You’re the best.

So I took by Personal Retreat Day (PRD) today.  My organization requires each of its team members get away once a month, to retreat, to quiet ourselves, get our lives in order, hear from God, etc.  Today I went around the Kennicott Smelter Thing south of the Salt Lake, and into a community of Stansbury Park.  I found myself navigating through the entire community, which I would have bet my life that I was driving through a Florida suburb!  It was full of gulf coast condo/house looking things, all sea foam blue (or green).  So I got out of there quickly, looking for some kind of place to unpack for the day.  I had to then drive south to the community of Toole, which was originally called Tuilla, which Mr. Young named all those years ago.  It was windy, rainy, dark, the clouds were grey and magnificent.  I found the library and finally got the password to the internet, in which I had to show my id, sign, initial and swear not to look at bad things (not really).  I found a couple laughing at me at one point, but when I looked straight at them, they both stopped and looked down. That’s how I was sure I was the object of their scorn, sarcasm or just plain Mormon put down fun.  Anyway, after awhile I made it to Applebees to camp out for the afternoon.  After entering the establishment and standing by myself for a couple minutes, with servers making eye contact with me or addressing me in any way (even though they passed by me), I turned around and walked out.  I made it over to Cafe Rio.  Not only was it a good call, but the manager gave me two points on my little frequent visitor card, which will eventually get me a free meal.  It was a good day, even though I couldn’t take my eyes off a 60 something man in a white Rebbok work out top, along with cowboy stirrup things that jingled every time he got a refill.  He looked like Richard Harris in Unforgiven!  It was a good day to try to pursue God.  I got a lot of fun along the way.

My Top Ten Favorite Restaurants/Places to Eat/Places to Drink Coffee in SLC

(NOT IN PARTICULAR ORDER)

Red Iguana

Tres Hombres

Cafe Rio

Pei Wei

Einstein Bros

Starbucks

Pie Pizza

Blue Plate Diner

Blue Iguana

Beans and Brew

tenthings

Ten things I think might be true today, but I’m not sure….I’m not sure of much these days……

I like the snow, just not today

I need the sun, I need light…at least today

I like building things, as long as they can be less than stellar in someone else’s eyes, I’m not very good at building. It’s fun!

Casino Royale is still in my Top 10 Favorite movies

I like quiet, with my wife sitting next to me, or near me

I like my new Kristine Meuller cd

I’m completely tired, hoping not to keel over soon

Redbox is great

I want to work on my book at length, but there’s not much length to be found

I cry sometimes when I look at or think about my children.  I deserve devil children, but God gave me something I don’t deserve.

Three Gravities

Behind these bars I find my freedom;
Beneath these barriers I breathe fresh air:

Blindness to the butterfly effect
Borne (in) every (in)action or (in)decision,
Breath, step, smile, groan, guffaw,
Blink, nod, nudge, slouch, slurp,
Bitter thought, cranky reaction,
Bashful disposition, and selfish exaction . . .
Billions of beware-ings and bearings
Burying all bastions of sanity;
Boom goes my mind!

Uncertainty of the future
Until it happens to be past;
Unlit roads through endless tunnels
Ubiquitously lined with ten-mile-wide doubts,
Utt-bugly fears as deep as bottomless
Unavoidable death
Underlying my need to walk by faith
Until the Light appears with glory,
Unveiling über utopic euphorium ad infinitum;

And love.

Christmas Time in Somalia

A 17-year-old Somali girl who converted to Christianity from Islam was shot to death on November 25 in an apparent “honour killing,” area sources said. Nurta Mohamed Farah, who fled her village of Bardher, Gedo Region, to live with relatives after her parents tortured her for leaving Islam, was shot in the head and chest with a pistol. Area sources said they strongly suspect that the two unidentified men who shot her were relatives or acting on their behest. Farah was killed in Abudwaq District, about 200 metres from where she had taken refuge. Christian sources said Farah’s parents had severely beaten her for leaving Islam and regularly shackled her to a tree at their home. She had been confined to her home since May 10, when her family found out that she had embraced Christianity. (from: persecution.net)

White as Snow

I love snow. It is pure, peaceful, and it covers everything.

One recent morning I woke up early and thrilled at the pile of snow resting just outside my window. I crawled out of my warm bed to get a better view, and it was worth it. The branches on the trees bent slightly under the weight they held; the snow on the ground was clean, without tracks, and glistened under the morning light creeping across the sky. The air had been cleared by the storm and I could see the Oquirrh mountains standing tall and white in the distance. It was perfect. The snow was pure, peaceful, and covered everything (including my car).

This morning I woke up early and went to my window to enjoy the snow again. As I looked out I saw muddy piles along the curb, messy tracks from muddy boots, and icy tire tracks along the street. It was a mess. There were still patches of pure white, but the snow had been disturbed, messed, and moved to uncover sidewalks and streets.

Isaiah 1:18 tells me – “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.”

I thought of this verse the second morning as I looked out at the messy snow. I knew that I had a part in making that mess, and I thought that must be what sin looks like in my life. A muddy, gross stain on something Christ made so white and pure.

“Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow” (Psalm 51:7).

Want to know something else I love about snow? It comes back to cover everything again. There will be more mornings that are covered in pure, peaceful white.

Want to know something I love about my Almighty God? He will wash me, cleanse me, and make me whiter than snow every time I ask. Grace. It is beautiful, and covers me. Like the snow.

Thank you, Jesus.

 

The Finish Hold

Sitting in the dirt, I rub my hands through the chalk bag one more time while studying the problem in front of me. It is a low start, left foot up, right flag. I stare at the rock, a simple progression of holds, cracks and ledges: left hand, rotate hips, right hand, work feet up, bump the right hand, rotate hips, put pressure on my left hand, work feet, left hand reach to the finish hold… fall. Every time.

Sitting in the dirt again, I catch my breath and wonder why I love this so much. Climbing is frustrating, difficult, painful, and makes it impossible to have soft well manicured hands – but I can’t seem to get enough. I love it. I love the messy white chalk, the tight leather shoes, the cold stone, and, more than anything else, I love finishing a climb for the first time.

Living in Salt Lake City is frustrating, difficult, painful, and makes it impossible not to hang on to God for dear life. Sometimes I sit in the smog and wonder why I love it so much – but I can’t seem to get enough. I love it. I love the mountains, the frequent appearance of quail, the church I get to be a part of, and, more than anything else, I love the relationships I have here.

The last year in this beautiful city has been as simple and excruciatingly hard as a boulder problem. Though I often feel like my fingers are straining on the smallest hold as I struggle to keep my balance in every area of life, I find that my Jesus always pushes me to the finish hold and catches me if I miss it.



zombieland

Do you know that feeling when you’re sick (especially if you’re drowsy from some medication) and you kinda feel like a zombie?  UGH!!!
Lately I’ve been taking prescription drugs for a muscle strain in my back.  I don’t like these drugs. They make me drowsy. I often can’t think straight or perform at my job. What’s worse is I don’t realize it. I find my boss and coworkers looking at me strangely or asking me if I’m ok. They tell me they’re not sure I’m all there. Tis not a good feeling.
I’ve known this feeling before, and I don’t like it. It’s the same feeling you get when you have unconfessed sin. Sin, at least in my experience, can have a kind of numbing effect. It closes your heart from feeling some hurt or painful longing. The problem is it closes your heart from feeling God too. You’re not making your heart better. You’re actually making it worse because you can’t connect with The Healer and you mayn’t even realize you’re hurting.
When I’m feeling spiritually or emotionally numb, I find refreshment and healing in prayer. Usually that prayer would begin something like this:
God, I know you’re there, but I don’t feel you right now. I confess that I have allowed my heart to stray from you. I have given in to (temptation, anger, lust, etc.) Please search my heart for any sin that I am not aware of.  Please forgive me for sinning against you and cleanse my heart.  I want to draw near to you God. Please draw near to me.  My heart has been a little closed towards you lately. Right now I want to open up my heart to you ….
Then I share what’s on my heart: fears, worries, temptations, longings, thankfulness, etc. and let the prayer go where it takes us. Sometimes it leads into a time of silence and listening to Him. Sometimes it leads to a time of praise. Sometimes He puts some scripture on my heart and it leads to a time of learning.  But always I come away feeling close to my God.

Do you know that feeling when you’re sick (especially if you’re drowsy from some medication) and you kinda feel like a zombie?  UGH!!!

Lately I’ve been taking prescription drugs for a muscle strain in my back.  I don’t like these drugs. They make me drowsy. I often can’t think straight or perform at my job. What’s worse is I don’t realize it. I find my boss and coworkers looking at me strangely or asking me if I’m ok. They tell me they’re not sure I’m all there. Tis not a good feeling.
I’ve known this feeling before, and I don’t like it. It’s the same feeling you get when you have unconfessed sin. Sin, at least in my experience, can have a kind of numbing effect. It closes your heart from feeling some hurt or painful longing. The problem is it closes your heart from feeling God too. You’re not making your heart better. You’re actually making it worse because you can’t connect with The Healer and you mayn’t even realize you’re hurting.
When I’m feeling spiritually or emotionally numb, I find refreshment and healing in prayer. Usually that prayer would begin something like this:

God, I know you’re there, but I don’t feel you right now. I confess that I have allowed my heart to stray from you. I have given in to (temptation, anger, lust, etc.) Please search my heart for any sin that I am not aware of.  Please forgive me for sinning against you and cleanse my heart.  I want to draw near to you God. Please draw near to me.  My heart has been a little closed towards you lately. Right now I want to open up my heart to you ….

Then I share what’s on my heart: fears, worries, temptations, longings, thankfulness, etc. and let the prayer go where it takes us. Sometimes it leads into a time of silence and listening to Him. Sometimes it leads to a time of praise. Sometimes He puts some scripture on my heart and it leads to a time of learning.  But always I come away feeling close to my God.

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